First day of Summer!

Today is the first day of summer!  Summer is my favorite season!  I love the sunshine, the warmth, being able to be outside all day, the color my skin gets when the sun hits it, the sno cones we get to cool us down.  Everything is wonderful! 
Today we (my girls and I) celebrated the first day of summer!  We started our day with a nice morning walk. We then went to the splash park out in Santaquin.  We ate ice cream cones outside.  We played in the backyard in the pool, on the swingset, on the trampoline.  We ate our dinner outside on a picnic blanket.  We layed out in the sun.  We definetely had lots of fun today!  The only thing I forgot was to take pictures!  We got so busy, and were having so much fun, that I completely forgot!  Oh well, I have the pics in my mind, and that will have to do.  :) 
I hope you all have had a great first day of summer, and I hope you have lots of fun-filled summer days!  I know we will!  :)

Father's Day

We had a wonderful Father's Day.  Tyra knew exactly what she wanted to get Lee for Father's Day......ties.  So we bought him a couple of ties.   We also made him breakfast in the morning.  We loved being able to celebrate Father's Day with Lee.  He is such a wonderful father to our daughters.  He loves them so much.  Paisley loves the weekends when Lee is home.  She won't even let me do anything for her, or hold her.  Only Lee can.  She is such a daddy's girl.  Here are a few pics with Lee and the girls.  They aren't the best pics.  None of them wanted their picture taken (well, Tyra did, she is a diva after all). 

For my dad for Father's day, my sister and I decided to take him out on a daddy daughter date.  We haven't had one in a while, and thought it would be fun.  We will be doing that this weekend, and we are all excited for it! 
I hope you all had a wonderful Father's day!

Motivation

I have gotten back most of my motivation this week.  I still haven't been able to do Insanity.  I have become so weak, I can't even make it through a warm up.  Its very frustrating.  I also have a horrible cough for the last two weeks, and as soon as I start working out hard, my cough takes over and I have to stop.  NOT FUN!  But, I have found other ways to work out this week.  I take my kids for a walk every day to the park.  I'm not sure how many miles we walk but it takes about twenty minutes to get to the park and twenty minutes to get home.  I used to be able to make it in shorter time, but now that Tyra walks instead of riding in a stroller it takes a little longer.  I think its about a mile each way.  I also bought Jillian Michaels Yoga Meltdown DVD and have been doing that every day this week.  I am LOVING it!  Didn't think I would like yoga very much because I am not a flexible person, but I am more flexible than I thought I was.  I also have been doing the Insanity weight training program every other day, and I have been doing Zumba on the opposite days of the weight training. 
Its been nice taking a break from Insanity, and switching up the routine. 
I took a pic of my back almost a year ago, and thought it looked pretty good.  My motivation is to get back to there again, or even have it looking even better!  :) 

Dreadful feeling

Do you ever get a feeling that something huge is about to happen?  Something life changing?  And with the feeling all you feel is dark and dreadful?
I had this feeling last night.  I wasn't feeling very good yesterday, having an off day, and last night when I went to bed I just got hit with something.  A horrible feeling, that I couldn't shake.  Something felt very off.  The thing that kept popping into my mind was it had something to do with me.  So, I then I started going through everything that could be wrong with me.  Maybe I have skin cancer, or maybe I have a tumor, or maybe ovarian cancer, or maybe ............ These thoughts just kept going through my mind.  Needless to say, I didn't sleep last night.  And I am really hoping that this was something just in my mind. 
Thanks for letting me get that off my chest.  It helps to write about these things.

Cont. from previous post

As I have been thinking about the previous post, I realized I sound pretty negative towards myself.  So, here are some positives that I have of myself, which I think would make me a great trainer/dietician:

• I have many people telling me in person and on facebook that I inspire them
• I have many people always asking me for workout routines, my opinion on different workouts, healthy recipe ideas, meal plans, etc.
• I believe that people respect me and my opinions
• People trust me

I think these are good qualities in a personal trainer.  I enjoy that friends and family come to me for help, questions, etc.  I like that they want to know what I think.  So, if my friends and family think I will do a great job, who's to say that others will think the same thing.  So, maybe I will get clients based off of these qualities, right? 

To be a personal trainer or not to be.....

This thought has been going through my head so much the past few weeks.  I really want to become one.  Helping others get healthy and meet goals would be an awesome and rewarding career.  So, why I am not sure I can do this?  Well, there are many reasons.  First of all, my lack of self-confidence in myself is a big one.  I keep asking myself, why would someone choose me over someone else to be there personal trainer and dietician?  Second, I don't have a personal trainers body.  I still have many issues to work on, and one might only be cured by surgery, and I don't plan on doing that any time soon, if ever.  Third, I let my anxieties take over me, and I don't dare enter a classroom at the moment.  I can do it online, but being able to actually learn in a gym and see all the different workouts to do in a gym would be awesome.  Fourth, I dislike gyms very much.  I get anxiety every time I step into one (which is very rare).  I don't like the thought that people are watching me, and could very well be judging me (part of the social anxiety that I suffer from.  It totally sucks thinking that people are judging and thinking mean thoughts of you all the time.  They probably don't, but I still think it).
I also have not been the healthiest eater these past couple of months.  I am an emotional eater, and whenever the weather is bad, all I want is sweets, and the weather has been glumy off and on lately.  So, how can I teach people to eat healthy, when I can't even get it under control myself? 
So, here is what I have decided to do.  I am going to be my own guinea pig.  I am going to learn how to overcome my emotional eating, and I am going to figure out what works best for me, and then when I do decide to become a personal trainer and dietician, I will be the best one I can be, and feel more confident about myself.  It will take A LOT of hard work, will power and determination.  I am sure I will experience downfalls along the way.  But this is something I need to do for myself. 
My 10 year high school reunion is in 3 months, and I need to look my best.  So, I have 3 months to transform my body and feel better about myself.  I am good about working out everday.  They are part of my daily routine.  Now I just need to focus on my eating.  If anyone out there has any tips on how to get over emotional eating please send them my way!  But do not tell me to start making crafts.  I am horrible at crafts, and they frustrate me, bringing on emotions, which leads me to eating. 
So, here I go on a journey that I feel I start too many times, and fail each time.  I will overcome my bad eating habits.  It just takes patience, and perseverence, and I got to keep thinking about the goals I want to accomplish by doing this! 
Encouragement along the way would be wonderful feedback for me!  :)
Thank you!

Song Challenge

Alright, so I am just going to finish up this song challenge because I think I should be on or close to day 30 by now.
Day 23: A song you want to play at your wedding: Forever and For Always-Shania Twain (that's our song)
Day 24: A song that you want to play at your funeral: I Will Remember You-Sarah McLachlin
Day 25: A song that makes you laugh: Stuck Like Glue-Sugarland (I love the music video to this song)
Day 26: A song that you can play on an instrument: I took piano lessons a long, long time ago.  At my last recital I played the theme song to The Young and the Restless.  Don't know if I can still play that song, but at one point I could!  :)
Day 27: A song that you wish you could play: Enter Sandman-Metallica; I have always wanted to play this song on the guitar, but I don't know how to play guitar.  When Guitar Hero:Metallica came out, I had to buy it.  So, I can play Enter Sandman on the Wii with the guitar!  :)
Day 28: A song that makes you feel guilty: F**kin Perfect-P!nk
Day 29: A song from your childhood: Achy Breaky Heart-Billy Ray Cyrus.  I loved this song when I was a kid.  Lol
Day 30: Your favorite song at this time last year: Hey Soul Sister-Train, and Young Forever-Jay-Z