Monday, October 11, 2010

Week 2

What can I say about week two? I learned that I am weak, and I cave into cravings very easily. I did not do well this week at all. Maybe it was the food, didn't really enjoy the food this week, so eating those meals every single day got old very fast.
On Tuesday I made dinner for my friend and her family, I made my comfort food: Broccoli and Cheddar soup in bread bowls. Well, I also made that for my family, and yes I ate that for dinner as well. Couldn't help myself, it was raining and it was the perfect meal for the rainy day. Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I did very well sticking to my diet. Saturday came and I was starving all day long. I was watching tv and I swear every food commercial out there came on, and cravings were hitting so hard, that I was literally in a bad mood because I was so hungry. So I finally told Lee that today was a free day and I was eating whatever I wanted. So he went and got some burgers and fries and onion rings from Daley Freez here in Payson. I was in heaven as I sat there eating all that greasy food! I also made double fantasy chocolate bars to take to our friends house that night for game night. And yes, I also ate one or two of those topped with ice cream. I know, I went all out that day!
Then on Sunday, I was back to sticking to the diet, until we went to my sister's house for dinner. I packed my dinner ( a mexican salad, which wasn't my favorite) to her house, mentally ready to eat it. But she had made tacos, and nachos and they smelled so good, and watching everyone else eat that delicious food, I decided to partake and ate a small plate of nachos. I did have portion control and didn't eat a lot.
Later we got word that my grandpa wasn't doing very well, so my mom, sister and brothers decided to go visit him. That was really hard for me seeing him like that. I came home and was once again hungry ( I know, I am always hungry!!) so I said to myself, screw it I am going to eat. So I ate some cereal. Fruity Pebbles. Its funny how food makes you feel better. Its not a good thing to be an emotional eater, I know that, but I can't help myself, especially when I am already feeling down.
On a plus side, I did do my workouts every day this week. I only missed the elliptical one day, but did all the strength training every day this week. So I know that I can do the workouts, and that isn't a weakness for me. I am very good at doing my workouts. At least I am consistent in one area of this program! :)
So, that was my week in a nut shell. So what was the outcome of all this? Well I gained two pounds (shocker!), and haven't dared measure myself yet, but I am sure the outcome isn't going to be anything good.
What have I learned this week? That I am weak, and I need to be stronger than cravings, and I need to replace food with something else when I am feeling emotional. But what doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger! I did buy Halloween costumes for myself and Lee yesterday online, and I HAVE to stick strictly to my diet until Halloween so that I will fit into my costume, and look smokin hot! :) So, that is my goal outfit for the month. And it will help me stick better to my diet.
Starting week 3 today. Wish me luck, and I plan on sticking to my meal plans this whole week. No more weakness or excuses, there is not room for that for the next few weeks. I am going to learn from my mistakes and be strong!!