Week 4 was a horrible week for me. I don't know if it was the weather, or what, but I did not stay on my meal plans the entire week! I craved food like crazy, and the food from week four was just not that good, and I had a hard time. I also suffer from some depression, mostly when there is bad weather, "winter blues" I guess it is called, so that could have had something to do with it.
It all started on Tuesday, when it was my turn to teach preschool. I had to come up with a snack, which means that the leftover snacks were brought back home with me. Now, I don't keep much junk food in the house, so its not there for me to snack on, and the junk food that I do have, is stuff that I don't like, but that my kids like. Anyway, so the snack for preschool was Nilla Wafers, which I am not a big fan of, but for some reason I was craving those, and I just kept sneaking a few cookies at a time, through out the whole day. Calories add up quickly that way. The next day I still wanted junk food, and thought to myself, well I already screwed up the day before, so what is one more day? And that is how the rest of my week was. I just lost my drive for the week, and honestly, didn't really care at the time. I kept telling myself, that I will do better next week. Not the best attitude to have, but that was my attitude. At the end of the week I did feel like a failure, and that I have let so many people down, that tell me that I inspire them. How am I supposed to inspire people, when I do things like this? Not a very inspirational week for me. Sorry to everyone!
I also have had a cold all week, which didn't help my eating either.
I was still able to do the workouts, except for Saturday's workout. Didn't get that one in. I have not weighed myself today, because I feel I will be disappointed in myself, and feel even worse than I do now, so I am not going to do that to myself.
This morning, I feel so horrible with a nasty cold, and have no appetite at all, so hopefully this will help lose some of the weight that I am sure I gained throughout the week. I am disappointed in myself, and have pushed back my goals, but I will get over it and move on and once I am feeling better, I will start with the new week, and keep moving on.
I am sorry if I have disappointed any of you that read this. But, now you all know that I am not perfect, and yes, I do make many mistakes, and I hope to learn from them!